So what’s new and what’s not since my last update?

nEw:

-i was gone for a week to attend my friend’s wedding in North Carolina.

            The details:   Flew out of Ontario airport the day after the 4^th

-Arrived in NC @ 11pm. Since the airport I flew in <Raleigh/Durham> was 5 hours away from my friend’s house, she had a friend pick me up <total stranger to me>

-arrived at Maja’s, the bride and a friend since birth, house at 3am.

-helped her with minor preparations for the wedding

-JULY 7

~bridal luncheon

            *semi-formal dinner

            *awesome food

~bachelorette partie with the rest of the bridesmaid

            *rode on a limo around town the whole evening

            *details, details, and more details

*crashed into a suite and enjoyed a “girls-night-out”

                                                -JULY 8,

 rehearsal

*the wedding director was a little anal and expected us to know everything. On top of that, after the last rehearsal, she did minor switch’roos and didn’t finalize our positions and what not.

                                                Luau dinner

                                                            *mmmm… good food.

*dressed up ‘islandie’ and I loooooooved it! hehehehe

                                                JULY 9

-the big day-

 MAJA MUNOZ/ TODD ADDAIR WEDDING

*was a successful and fun day!

*can’t believe tho’ that my childhoold friend has actually tied the knot. *hehhee*

JULY 11

-         day at the beach! Awww… too bad it wasn’t actually a day at the beach. It was raining real hard that we had to head back and cancel our picnic. Instead, we had a mini get together at home. Wuz fun!

-         had a good dinner over at Grandmary’s place.

-         More good food!!

JULY 12

*hit the road towards the airport at 2am.

*was a loooooooong flight back here.

*I practically traveled the whole day <11pm-6pm, cali time>

so that’s that for the wedding.

Now, what else is new?

Was offered a job over at the IT computer tech! woooohooo!!!! More $$ to pay off my bills! *hehehe* but it’s not all good tho because that means… less chillin’ time for me. Boo!

What’s not new???

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORK!

This is the saddest letter ever… awww… *sniff* *sniff*

Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.
He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has
been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite
understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my
existence.
I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had
fingers and toes.
I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not
near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.
Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding
between you and me.
Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you.
Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.
I heard Daddy yelling back.
I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much. One day you
cried almost all of the day.
I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so  unhappy.
That same day, the most horrible thing happened.
A very mean monster came into that warm,
comfortable place I was in.
I was so scared, I began screaming, but you
never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me. The monster got closer and closer as I was
screaming and screaming,
"Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help
me."
Complete terror is all I felt.
I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't
anymore.
Then the monster started ripping my arms off.
It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.
I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.
I knew I would never see your face or hear you
say how much you love me..
I wanted to make all your tears go away.
I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.
Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the
pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I could only imagine the terrible things that they had
done to you.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was
gone, but I didn't know the words you could
understand.
And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I
was dead.
I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge
angel into a big beautiful place.
I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.
He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then
I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that
killed me. He answered, "Abortion.
I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."
I don't know what abortion is;
I guess that's the name of the monster.
I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you
how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the
monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of
me. It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.
I didn't want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion
monster.
Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go
through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful. \

Love,
Your Baby Girl